Wednesday, January 28, 2009


Can it really almost be the end of January 2009? Time flies by these days! In just a week or so my youngest son will be 29 years old; I can hardly believe it. Of course, my oldest son is now 35 and my daughter is 32. Can I be old enough to have children that old? I guess so, since it is true.

My recovery is going really well. I will stopping individual therapy soon and joining the group. They haven't set it up all the way yet, but I am ready when they are! I had a revalation the other day; after this major depressive episode I really need to re-define myself as a person. After a lot of thought, I am trying to accept myself for the person I am, not for who I "think" I should be. In the past, I have always wanted that from others, but never did it for myself. Hmmm. DH has been extra supportive lately and I love him even more for that. He has made suggestions but not issued orders and that makes my life so much easier.

DH and leave on 2/13 for our vacation. We are both getting excited! Our first stop will be Nashville and the Grand Ole Opry. I found out some of the performers we will see are Darrell Worley and Kathy Mattea! I love Kathy Mattea. Her music is so down to earth and warm. There are also some performers we are not familiar with. It should be so wonderful!

DH gave me a cold! I knew I should have slept in the guest room while he was so sick. So far I just have a drippy nose and a scratchy throat. Maybe that will be all I get? I hope so and, if not, that I get over it quickly. DD called today and she and the two little ones are sick, too. Little granddaughter has a fever and when she got on the phone I could hear her faster breathing. Poor baby! Little grandson has it too, but he is mostly crabby. He did manage to say "lub oo gamma" though and melt my heart.

I spent some time on the Splitcoast Stampers website tonight. That is such a fascinating site. I could actually spend hours there and I learn so much! I am always open for new ideas when it comes to scrapping, stamping, and new ways to organize my space. (If only I actually USED the ideas! LOL)

Well, I need some liquid as my throat is really dry and scratchy. So I will say goodnight.


Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Inauguration Day

We have a new president! I am feeling very hopeful that President Obama can accomplish his campaign promises. Good luck, Mr. President!

Things are still going pretty good. I tried to work in the craft room today, but it is just so overwhelming! I know what I want to do, really, I can even see it in my mind. But, accomplishing it is another story. Why am I so unable to do something so simple? My therapist keeps telling me not to beat myself up over this sort of thing, but it's really hard not to. I feel like I must have been born without the cleaning and organization gene.

Last night I drove about 25 miles to my friend Jessica's for stamp club. I almost didn't go because it had been snowing off and on all day. The roads were a tiny bit slick but not the whole way and it was much better coming home. I enjoy stamp club so much. I get to see people who enjoy stamping as much as I do, we make pretty cards and projects, and I get OUT of the house. Tomorrow I will be going out to my appointment with the therapist. I look forward to that, also. She helps me sort through my thoughts.

DD and the two little ones will be here tomorrow. I told DH to get ready! The little ones will run his socks off. Eek! That means I have to babysit on Thursday while DD gets her hair done. I hope I am ready!

Okay, I admit it, I am addicted to reality TV. My favorites are John and Kate Plus Eight, Big People Little World, and the Duggars on TLC. On Style Network I love Clean House (go figure). I think I enjoy seeing that other people are clutters too.

That's enough for tonight.


Saturday, January 17, 2009

What is the date?

You know, it has gotten to where I remember the day of the week, today is Saturday, but I cannot remember the date. Oh, DH says it is the 17th. Wow, time flies!

Well, the medication change has begun. I hope it works out as I am really tired of the involuntary movements. The complete changeover will take about three weeks, so...we'll see!

Spent a couple of days at DD's home. That was fun! The little ones sure do wear me out though! Ashley wanted to "run, Grandma!" so we ran, around the dining room table, about 6 times. And then Grandma was pooped! So, I watched she and her little brother run around and around. Whew! Made me even more tired just watching!

My mom has gone back down to my little sister's for a few months this time. The house will seem empty without her. But DH and I are enjoying our alone time. This is his weekend off and we spent part of the afternoon and evening having a movie date. We had it here at home, but that's okay. He offered to take me out, but it has been snowing off and on all day and it's cold so I suggested watching a few of the movies we have that haven't been watched yet. We watched Wall-E and Eregon. I loved them both and so did he. We even had popcorn! Then DH grilled a steak for supper, (he really is being a sweetie lately). Now we are sitting here stuffed but happy and watching Independence Day.

I am still working on my side of the bedroom; a little at a time and the same for the craft room. I WILL get done eventually, I have committed to it this time.

Well, gonna go for now! Take care all and God Bless!


Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Going Good!

Things are continuing to improve day by day, even though my mother says she doesn't see it. My DH helped me get started on my side of the bedroom again. Believe it or not, I am actually going to finish this time. I have almost all my clothes out of the room and I am going to start from scratch. The dresser drawers are pretty empty and so is my closet. I am only going to put back what I actually wear. That way I am not moving things from one place to another and I won't be overwhelmed by too much stuff. I had to promise DH not to go shopping to replace the things I get rid of, though! LOL!

Tomorrow I resume my counseling after a two week holiday break. I think I have done okay but I am so ready to resume. I had a horrible fight with my dear sister and I am hoping she'll forgive me. I won't go into it here, but it was really bad. We both overreacted and it really got nasty. Fights are horrible anyway, but I regret this one more than any we've ever had. If you read this, Sis, I love you and I'm so sorry.

I have also been working in my craftroom a little. It feels good to think that maybe I will have it more functional soon. I think of it as my little retreat from the world. But, I am taking it one step at a time and not getting ahead of myself.

Tonight I was watching Clean House on the Style network. They have finally started opening up the show to the whole country. That means I could apply, but I doubt they would choose me because I live in the country and don't have a good probability for lots of people at a yard sale. Too bad, I would love their help in a few rooms. Right now, my craft room rates as the worst space, with my bedroom and kitchen or dining rooms following. Oh, well! Maybe I won't need them anyway, right?

Okay, done talking for tonight. Hope everyone is doing well! God Bless!


Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year!

Well, here it is, the first day of the new year. And I am facing this year with a great sense of hope. Hope that things will be changing for all of us. Hope that our economy will recover and people will have less to worry about. Hope that I can overcome my depression ALL the way. I am doing so much better, but there is plenty of room for improvement. Hope that our new president will prove to be what this country needs. God bless you President Obama, you are going to need every bit of help you can get!

Christmas went so much better than I could even have hoped for. I enjoyed my family so very much. The grandchildren were adorable and loved their presents. It was wonderful to have everyone home on Christmas Day! Mom and I have everything ready for dinner and my kids helped with the cleanup. We had ham, homemade scalloped potatoes, green beans, a sweet potato casserole that my DIL brought (yummy!), a tossed salad DD brought, and a loaf of pumpkin bread made by my other DIL's mom. DIL #1 also brought along a ton of her tasty Christmas cookies. I bet I gained 5 lbs.

Last night I had a quiet evening with DH and then alone after he went to bed at
10:00. Mom went even earlier, so I saw the new year in myself. It was fun watching the party program that featured Dick Clark. What a guy! He is doing so well after his stroke and it was wonderful to see him there!

Didn't get much done today, but I did make up a goal list for myself. Hey, it's all about little steps, right?

Hope you all have a happy and healthy new year!